nights after nights, the more I see myself

a girl who people think of when they are lonely.
one that is seen as a for-the-moment
just a lil bit better than nothing
that is my life
don't ever compare life
each is different and each is the one
I will live the best out of mine
at least I will try

a drop in the ocean

last day of 2012
I realized how feeble friendship is
What means by love is blind
How people just walk out of lives
Come back and stir up a mess when they wish
yet am still lost
desire dream wish hope love miss
none belongs to me.
Each year, I started to get excited about christmas when summer ends.
No happy endings in the past and for now....
I will still be excited for the next.
that's the very me. x
happy new year

love is evol

it's like a dream starting all over again
every time I see you
one that pulls me in, so deep
they say no feelings
I laugh nod assume
inside I cry everytime
too good to be true
too much to forget.
never will I make promises
not even believing in myself
no guarantee this is the end
but it really is the time to say goodbye.
thank you, the best dream ever<3

Watching the clock that's ticking away my time

How long has it been?
Everything seemed so vague, like it never happened.
How long does it take for memories to fade? Waking up from dreams might just be the same
I barely remember the look in your eyes, the unknown smile you put on and almost everything.
Learning the proper way to say goodbye, to separate desire and reality. To live my life, but not to dream about life.
HE IS THE PLACE TO DREAM BUT NOT THE PLACE TO LIVE.

Am kind of missing you

Wonder why we never watch the sun rises,
So calm so peaceful.
You showed me the stars,
From the tiny little window.
Was amazed, loved it.
That is just it. No more.
Memories? None
We barely even talk.
Sunrise is the time to getup and leave.
Leaving behind weird feelings of me but just a normal morning for him.