Watching the clock that's ticking away my time

How long has it been?
Everything seemed so vague, like it never happened.
How long does it take for memories to fade? Waking up from dreams might just be the same
I barely remember the look in your eyes, the unknown smile you put on and almost everything.
Learning the proper way to say goodbye, to separate desire and reality. To live my life, but not to dream about life.
HE IS THE PLACE TO DREAM BUT NOT THE PLACE TO LIVE.

Am kind of missing you

Wonder why we never watch the sun rises,
So calm so peaceful.
You showed me the stars,
From the tiny little window.
Was amazed, loved it.
That is just it. No more.
Memories? None
We barely even talk.
Sunrise is the time to getup and leave.
Leaving behind weird feelings of me but just a normal morning for him.

I won't cry myself to sleep like a sucker

Everytime I fall for the wrong guy
The one who doesn't give a shit
No complains cause I am the one
who shows up every fucking time
Knowing how things are gna be
I still am gna go for it
That's me, yes I fucked up.
So don't cry myself I slp.
If I do I'll die, damn you.
Maybe? Damn me perhaps.